Alena

Alena

My name is Alena. I am Russian girl who decided to defy my fears, many years later, while depending on the surrounding world…
A few years ago I was diagnosed with diabetes mellitus type 1. At the time I was a teenager and didn’t understand how to change my life. I went to the hospital with a body weight of 47 kg, height 172 cm , ketoacidosis and sugar in 25 mmol. I was on a drip for six hours a day without stopping, analyses, constant monitoring of blood glucose, diet and the pity in people’s eyes towards you…I couldn’t understand why I need all these tests? 21 days in the hospital seemed a torture. But a new life was just beginning…
In school I was exempted from final exams in that year. This fact pleased me, like what my classmates have adequately responded to my diagnosis, and problems with further communication I did not have. I already knew how to sugar checked before meals and put the insulin (5-6 times a day, depending on meals), BUT I did it only at home ,among my family, because I was embarrassed to “shoot up” in front of strangers. For this reason, because of a long gap in meals, sugar sometimes rose to the levels of 16 -20 mmol.
As time went on, I became a young, beautiful girl, I had a boyfriend. You ask me ,so what? And then again…Because I FEAR no one talking about “it”…Six months I did not dare to tell him that I have diabetes. The day “X”, I was hysterical and tears. I was afraid that he might leave me, will not be able to understand and accept me “like this”. But Thank God this didn’t happen!!! He took it with dignity, not giving importance to this diagnosis. Probably because I was no different from “ordinary” people are absolutely nothing more than. I have just had my secret. The mystery of my LIFE…
This young man and I dated 4 years. Then we broke up. Probably because young love is not always eternal))) But life has not stopped ,and I was with my “diabetes friend” was moving forward to meet your dreams and desires. But the childhood desire was to become a famous model. Because in my provincial town was not the model school ,I was cast in a regional Agency and has made a good start to learn. After studying for 2 months I realized that the world’s catwalks not for me, because I have diabetes!! What kind of world agencies agree to work with this model?? Who will provide me with the insulin, the test strips for my glucometer in a foreign country?
When I left school, my teacher of history of fashion said: “I had really big plans…”, but I’m a coward, and I couldn’t tell her about my diagnosis…
I got a job that didn’t bring me any pleasure, studied at the University , who wanted to quit ( I did it twice), and dreamed of… All changed 2012 . This is one of the best periods of my life. This year was by the main desire ( and they have a lot, believe me)). On October 24, the method of caesarean section ,was born my son. My little Prince Elisej. Many of You now probably want to know how my pregnancy and birth? Answer – FINE!!! Despite measuring blood sugar five or even seven times a day, constant injections of insulin, the pregnancy was wonderful. I was a “normal pregnant woman”. The weight gain was 8 kg. Sugar was normal throughout the period. Now my boy is already 3 years. He is HEALTHY, rambunctious boy.
My main desire was fulfilled. I became a mother. But the Caprice of childhood haunted me. And half a year ago I decided that, to fulfill his childhood dream. I’ve had a great, candid photo shoot, to see me, millions of people on planet earth with the stigma of “HANDICAPPED” ,could believe in themselves, set aside their fears and went to their targets. After all, no matter what your diagnosis, no matter how long you are “hiding” from people. It is important that you are as “normal” people, and deserve to be HAPPY, just like everyone else.
All above written is my story… And  #itismylife…

P. S. I think this story will read the people from my environment who are not even aware that I have some health problems. And there are many such people. All because the fear to open up to the world was in the leading role in my LAST LIFE…


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